Ah, Star Trek.
My first Sci-Fi love.
When I explain what Star Trek is to non-Trekkies, I simply say- “Star Trek is not about starships, planets, or aliens, It’s about people”.
That tends to surprise people because of course all of the wormholes, phasers and Klingons are much more flashy than the subtleties of humanity.
But, then again, maybe not.
As a 13-year old girl in a new town, in a new school, with no friends, the quieter story of people being people was the most gripping aspect of the show.
I especially loved all of the characters who didn’t fit in…
So many of them didn’t.
One of the most compelling of these characters is Seven of Nine from Star Trek Voyager. Born human, she was taken, brainwashed, and assimilated into the Borg collective at the age of 6 years old.
Through a certain chain of events she was rescued by captain Janeway and liberated from the collective after many years. For the remainder of the show she must work to regain her humanity and discover her identity.
She was brilliant, innovative, talented, and assertive. Not to mention the fact that she was drop-dead gorgeous even with her Borg implants.
She had it all. She always kept it together, but even in all of her perfection she struggled with a deep loneliness that she herself could not define.
I see myself in her story even more at 23.
I’ve escaped my own collective.
I know what It’s like to leave the only thing, the only tribe you know. To have to reinvent yourself. To realize that perfection isn’t what you really want after all.
Truly, all we want is to be human together.
Which, for Seven and I, is much more difficult than it seems.
If I had a Borg designation it would have been “Three of Three”.
It is a terrifying and completely isolating moment when you realize that you have become simply “One”.
One decision maker.
One movie ticket.
One chair at a restaurant.
Especially for someone who had grown accustomed to and relied on the voices of the others.
Seven never gained back the entirety of her humanity. She remained always on the outside, if only by a smidge.
Because sometimes, that is simply the lot One is given.